No Soliciting, Please.

It's very hard to come back home from the hospital and still be pregnant.

Thursday morning (and when I say morning I mean 4:00 A.M.) I started having consistent contractions every 4 minutes apart. By 8:00 A.M. I called my doctor's office and was told to go to Labor and Delivery. I spent the next day and a half at the hospital contracting regularly about 3-4 minutes apart and they we coming on strong and were definitely painful enough.

By Friday afternoon I did not progress anymore and was stuck at 4 cm dilated and 90% effaced. If you haven't been pregnant before you probably don't know what this means, and I am in no mood to explain it.

I was finally told by my doctor that I should go home since I have not progressed any further. He did not and would not assist the labor because I am only 36 weeks and 4 days pregnant. He wouldn't touch me until I was at least 37 weeks which is considered full term. To be fair he was hesitant to send me home at first because of the distance I am from the hospital, but there was nothing they could do for me. He was soon to be done with his shift that day and the on-call doctor refused to touch at 36 week pregnant woman.

So, I am home. And for some strange reason my contractions have pretty much stopped being consistent, and are very random now. It's too emotional to deal with, thinking and being told the baby would be born yesterday to now sitting at home with a huge pregnant belly still. Everyone at the hospital was convinced that I would be having the baby then, but no, here I am not holding a baby.

I just want to lock myself up in the house and not have any contact with the outside world. At this point I am in no mood to socialize.

 I know I should be happy that the baby wasn't born yet until he is considered full term, but it's also frustrating thinking I was in labor, being told I was in early stages of labor, and then nothing happen.

Well, at least I am no longer on any medicine to control my contractions and I can now do "normal" everyday things again. Guess I will start scrubbing the house down to pass the time.