Just a Little Bit of Nervousness

It's only noon and I have officially had that weird nervous knot in my stomach happen 3 or 4 times already. I am 36 weeks pregnant now which means technically I only have 4 or less weeks to go.

Tomorrow is my 36 week check-up and I stop all contraction meds tomorrow as well, well technically tonight when I go to bed and so this means I can go into labor any time now. I have a 50/50 shot of going into labor now according to my doctor which is what keeps making me have the nervous attacks this morning. The baby can be here any time and now all of a sudden I feel like my house is filthy and there is so much I should get done, but I can't do.

I feel like any time anything gets cleaned, it just get dirty again. I guess that's what happens where there are other people living in the house as well. I am afraid to do any cleaning besides light straightening in fear that it will cause me to go into labor or my water will break. I don't feel ready for that just quite yet, but then again I want this pregnancy to be over.

I am looking forward to my appointment tomorrow just to see if the doctor has anything new to say. I doubt he will have any new information for me, though. I am hoping he will say "why don't you head up to the hospital now and go ahead and have the baby." Ha, like that would really happen. I think what gets to me the most is that there is no set date when the baby will be ready to come and it drives me nuts. I like things planned out, and I can't plan when it's the exact time for the baby to come, only that I know it will happen in the next 4 weeks. So it's the waiting game for me, and I do not like it.